It has taken me a while to write this post, with one thing and another.
I want to cry for the world, but I feel I lack the energy.
I look at the situation in the UK, and the Government’s actions, and I fear for those around me. I don’t want my friends to die. I don’t want my family to die. I don’t want my colleagues to die. And yet, around 50k people have died to Covid-19 in the UK.
I look at the situation in the US, and what is going on after the George Floyd’s
death murder. I grieve for those who are taking this opportunity to loot and riot, and yet I am reminded that the situation in the US is different to the UK, especially in regards to Police action and accountability. How easily it feels to see police brutality over the US, and how scrutinised the Police is in the UK. We have had our fair amount of racist incidents, and I am certain those happen on a daily basis in the UK.
I remember the Tottenham Riots in 2011 and I remember speaking to a neighbour in Ealing the day after one neighbour had been murdered by the rioters. Nothing to do with police protests, but indiscriminate rioting, looting, and, what appears to me, an attempt to “balance the tables” between all sides of society.
Seeing videos on the internet of people stealing Nike trainers, and being reminded that some trainers cost over £700. Or £950. A pair. Nobody needs those trainers. But they exist. They are wanted. They will be looted.
The queues after McDonald’s have recently reopened, calls made to Police to help manage the queues. The increase amount of littering we have noticed at home because of those fast food places reopening to the world.
The queues in Parliament after remote voting has been stopped. MPs trying to get to vote, and having to face either being exposed to Covid-19, or not being able to vote. Democracy eroded, and at a stake.
I used to understand the world, but I feel I just don’t “get it” anymore. I am certainly not qualified to give an opinion on US politics, and probably shouldn’t be qualified to give an opinion on anything for that matter. The world (and especially the internet) appears to be a minefield of opinions that cannot be had, either knowingly or unknowingly.
And yet, we appear to be taken for a fool by Governments.
We lose track of what matters – each other.
I feel lost, confused, and scared.
“Forgiveness is a strange thing. It can sometimes be easier to forgive our enemies than our friends. It can be hardest of all to forgive people we love. Like all of life’s important coping skills, the ability to forgive and the capacity to let go of resentments most likely take root very early in our lives.”
I do hope things will be OK in the end.