I recall an instance, a few years back, when I was swimming in the sea with my ex. Well, I was swimming, he was on the beach. This must have been a few years ago, probably during the summer, and definitely in Whitstable.
If you’ve ever swimmed in Whitstable you will remember that the beaches there are quite rocky with large stones. The sea is quite cold and, to be fair, relatively dangerous. Riptides and side currents can drag one away from the entry point.
The reason why I recall this particular moment was because it was not that common for me to swim. I am quite a lazy swimmer (I absolutely love the feeling of water around my body), but I absolutely hate the admin that goes with it (getting into the water, all cold, my footsies hurting from the stones, having to dry afterwards, the sand and so on), you get the drift.
In, yay. Before in, and after out, boo.
I think my ex had been swimming and had left the water to dry up, whilst I remained inside for a bit.
What is the difference between a red flag, and a flaw?
Whilst my ex dried up, a child (probably around 12/13?) approached him. At that point I was relatively quite far away (not enough to be able to hear the conversation, but close enough to see what was going on.
The child started grabbing stones and throwing them in my general direction.
My ex laughed – how funny this whole thing was!
I honestly cannot tell the sizes of the stones, but they looked more like tennis balls than pebbles – to the point that if one had hit me, it would have caused injury.
At that point I was trying to get out of the water, shouting at the kid to stop, whilst in a way trying to avoid being hit by a stone. To get out, I would have to get closer to the kid, and therefore to the stones, increasing the likelihood of being hit. I was shouting throughout to stop and, most definitely, not joining in the laughter.
In the end, I was not hit, but the absence of action from my ex, who remained standing there, chuckling at the whole thing, was surreal – painfully so.
Did he not grasp the danger I was in?
If he thought I was not in danger, did he not see how distressed I was about the whole ordeal?
If he did not see the distress I was experiencing, was he so emotionally numb that he was unable to grasp the concept that someone else might be under distress?
I can’t remember much of the rest of the day, but I remember having the argument with my ex as to why he remained inactive and did nothing – his partner at the time – to help.
A flaw is someone not “getting” someone else’s emotions.
A red flag is not noticing that anyone else but themselves has emotions, and therefore why should they care.
I’m glad I got out of there relatively unscathed.